The Mouse.

We have a mouse. Or do we have mice?

I noticed him the first time nearly two weeks ago, when I spilled some spaghetti on the kitchen floor, looked down mechanically, and saw, amid the sprawled grocery bags, a little brown ball bolt in the other direction.

Mentally, this is how I processed this occurrence:
1. Alive.
2. Brown
3. Bigger than cockroach.
4. Mouse-sized.
5. Mouse.
6. Holy Jesus.

I don't deal well with mice. To me, having an animal larger than an urban invertebrate unwelcome and lurking in your apartment hints toward disturbing health and sanitary issues. When we first moved in to our 1212 apartment, I had a difficult time with the occasional cockroach. Then I became accustomed. I have never seen a cockroach in this apartment, but the mouse is just too big a step up. Becoming familiar with the unwelcome mouse is too close to graduating to rats, and that is something I certainly never want to be comfortable with.

I realize, though, that mice are simply a reality--in urban centers, in apartment buildings, especially in decrepit urban apartment buildings that strain and gasp at the trial of heating your unit and reveal holes and gaps throughout the infrastructure. This place isn't a mouse house because it's gross, in the way of old food and garbage everywhere; it's a mouse house because it retains that old Chicago, worn wooden floor, crumbling interior character. This I tell myself. Especially in light of my recent frenzy of cleaning, my lemonizing the floors and meticulous organization and almost overkill cleaning of the microwave.

And yet. Tonight--nearly two weeks later--the mouse made his second appearance, in a kitchen too clean for his furry little ass. He breezed in from the hallway, saw me, increased his speed, nearly ran in to the bucket with the mop, and went under the table. Sitting at the table, I let out a short but necessary scream, and calmly stood on the chair. I did not panic further. I allowed perhaps 30 seconds of fear. I then dismounted the chair, and calmly left the room. This is an improvement over last week, when, in my rush to leave the kitchen, I tripped over myself in the hall and psychotically crawled into Amulya's room.

I will sweep up every grain of rice. I will spray jets of Fresh Laundry Fields, or whatever, into every corner. I will further lemonize our floors.

I will defeat this mouse.